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I hadn't had a good day today. I've been slipping in and out of these little depressive episodes that when I can and I'm able, I will stay in bed the whole day. It doesn't make for a super awesome life right now but it is what it is. I don't tell many people when I'm not doing OK anymore because I feel I'm a bother. I'm missing some friends and I felt a little bit alone tonight but I wanted to just tell a quick tale before I went to bed.

I have no food in my house. It was almost 6 before I finally and got the energy to go and grab something. Not anything healthy of course, because when you're depressed and trying to stay away from things that will really be unhealthy for you like drugs and alcohol, you tend to gravitate towards awful fried gross wonderful depravity. So of course, I'm waiting in the fast food drive to get my burger, not feeling good and already irritated because I had a feeling that some impoliteness was headed my way.  I was preparing myself to basically be a total bitch because I was grumpy and then something shifted in side me, and I remembered that I'm a human being and so is the person on the other side of this window.

The beautiful, tired, slightly round woman at the window handed me my strawberry shake and kind of just sighed. She was waiting for the rest of my food and it took a couple of minutes then I heard her say, "What a beauuuuuutiful evening" in a manner implying it was not beautiful at all but exhausting instead. I caught her eye and laughed. She looks at me and she said "Oh I'm sorry, your food will just be a couple more minutes." And I said "Really it's no trouble, take your time. Rough night?" She smiled slightly and said, "No, just ready to go home. Two more hours." She handed me my food and I said "May it go by quickly for you! You have a good night, OK?"  She also smiled, said good night and I was on my way.

It's not much on the outside, but compassion is so overlooked most of the time when it can be easily found. No fancy blog post today, just a message to go out and spread a little care on this Sunday.

No, it's not Sunday here yet, but I'm always on London time.

Good night.